Now don’t get me wrong here, Im not a stress freak.. yes I
do think a lot, a little more than a lot actually, and most of the times, that
thinking ‘a lot’ doesn’t get me anywhere.. but I do it anyways.
Recently, that is, in the past 4 years, my thinking reach has gone far beyond
normalcy, and my thinking speed has also increased immensely..
But its not like Scarlet Johanson in ‘Lucy’ Who can access
more parts of her brain (although I wish it worked like that). Its more like
wasteful thinking. The kind of thinking that gets you worried and stressed but
doesn’t bring you to a conclusion, or the next step.
People do silly things when they are stressed. What do I do?
I talk a lot, then I don’t talk at all (majorly cause im too busy thinking what
to do). Then I try to run away from the situation by talking to friends (who
are not related to the problem) and trying to explain the whole situation to
them. Then I’d watch a movie/ listen to songs, go out for coffee alone, wash
the dishes, cook my favourite dish, read, run, and recently I started pulling
my hair when I got stressed (literally!).
As my stress levels increased, I started pulling my hair a
lot more. It became such a habit, that half of the times I wouldn’t even
realize that I was doing it! Then the hair pulling became such a habit that I
would end up doing it even when I was not stressed! People started noticing,
and pointing it out, which used to get me irritated and I would pull my hair even
more. Because of people noticing it and making me feel that this action was
odd, I stopped doing it in public (also cause it would ruin my hair style).
One day, I was sitting at home, watching an episode on my
laptop from my favourite series and without realizing, my left hand reached the
top of my head and I started pulling strands of my hair. I kept pulling my hair
throughout the episode. As the episode
got over, I shut my laptop, switched off the lights and put my head on the
pillow. The left side of my head was throbbing and it hurt when I pressed it
against the pillow. I couldn’t sleep for 2 hours after that. Out of curiosity
and worry, I took out my phone and searched for ‘Why do people pull their hair?’
… and not to my surprise, I found the main reason for this to be stress.
I didn’t really think I would write a post about this, but
just needed to write it down somewhere, for me to remember how useless the ‘hair
pulling’ action really is.
I still do it, but I am conscious of the fact that
Im doing it… So I always have a choice to stop it. People say I do it lesser
now, so there is some improvement! I tie my hair often, keep doing something or
the other with my hands to keep them busy. If you know me and see me doing it,
poke me, nudge me, tell me Im doing it… Stop me! It would show me you care, and
I would be able to save my hair! :)
